The journal

 I still remember when I was in secondary school,my English teacher have this activity where we need to write something, anything every week. We would write it in a journal that should be submitted to her every friday. Man isn't that time the loveliest time ever. I like it so much. And its like we really love her so we pour everything in every entry. And she would always put some cute remarks  when she reads them. I remember how i would get so worked up in thinking of what should i write today, about that new song or that new movie we wanted to watch but cant (since we're in the boarding school) or that crush we develop on the guy from next class (yep i did write about mine), the process itself was very fun. I guess the best part in writing that journal is that i would always receive some feedback about what I wrote and it made me feel listened, cherished and that what it exciting. You are being listened to, being. Cherished. It is as if you are important. And man that feeling do wonders for myself. It kept me motivated in writing those journal entris. 

❤️❤️❤️

Kalau harini aku jatuh cinta, aku cuma harap cinta tu tak bawa pergi kewarasan aku. Bawa aku dekat dgn benda yang aku sayang cukuplah. 

Revenge

I guess if someone wanted to bring you down, what you should do is ignore them  and get up even more higher than you already are. Tak payahlah nak tell tale to people. Get back up is the sweetest way to get revenge i suppose. 

Live

I have with me

One hell of a plan

To live my life the way i want

Frustration

How i am feeling right now is a feeling that i hope no one will ever get a taste of.  Forgive. But never forget. How am i going to get pass this hatred i feel? 

Lying wont get you anywhere

Only to the land of no peace

The land of hell

Your demons are the only companion

Along with aggravated self-hate 

No matter how bad you feel

The worst will be your victim

How they believed and cared

Their love pushed down the drain

Leaving only pain and deepest cracks

In their trust that can never heal.

Celaru

Serabut as i fall in like with someone i should never like. Serabut as i do not know what to do with the feels. Serabut because if i say i die immediately, if i dont say i die a slower death deep inside. Serabut as the person has always been that person. Serabut as the feelings never go away. Serabut as i know what we feel is incoherent. Serabut as i dont like to keep it to myself. Serabut as you dont wanna know about it. Serabut as you want somebody else. Serabut that i could never compare to her. Serabut you never even spare me a glance. Serabut wanting to get over you but at the same time i dont. Serabut as im trying to let go but still keeping hopes. Serabut is me right now and i dont like it even a tiny bit.

Not that ineligible :p

Ada benda buruk yang jadi tapi rasanya lagi bagus kalau i focus on the good things instead kan. 

*weh kau rasa aku cantik ke?*

*hm, aku cakap ni kau jgn pikir pelik kat aku pulak. Sebenarnya dulu aku pernahlah nak try kauu* 😱😱😱

Jadi bila ada one eligible bachelor mengaku pernah suka kat saya, ada hati kat saya, saya tinggal nak bersorak gembira je lah hehehehe. Yelah, mana tak nya rupanya aku ni takdelah tak laku ke ape hahaha anyway semoga kau dgn kekasih hati yg sekarang kawin cepat supaya tak kena panahan mata sape sape. Sebab aku betul sayang kau sbb dah naikkan self esteem aku kaw kaw punyaa. Hahahaha. Sekarang cuma harap jejaka arsenal tu kalau ada hati sikit pun kat aku, jgn lah tinggalkan perasaan tu berlalu macam tu je tauuu awakkkk. 

#COYG

Sebab cantik tu forever subjective :)